Archive for July, 2002

a note to all

Thursday, July 25th, 2002

Tonight, I was seriously considering shutting this site down for awhile. A friend of mine wrote this for me… and I just had to post it.

LIBBY: (n) (pronounced: Li-bi): 22 year old female from South Carolina.

Her overly-sympathetic ear makes her makes her a great prospective friend to many. Her “Southern Hospitality” personality makes her an inviting conversationalist, leading to a great many people coming to her site, reading her quirky babbles, and seek her out for chatting.

This character trait is a double-edged sword for Libby, as she attracts both the good and the bad people to her site, and ultimately into private messages. Libby’s biggest character flaw, as she would readily admit, is her inassertiveness, or inability to set rigid boundaries. These things are regularly taken advantage of, in the form of marriage proposals, love-at-first-chats, and other such stalkerish activities.

As any female can attest, any showing of kindness to an insecure male can lead to a puppy dog following you around, humping your leg for an extended period of time, sometimes up to years, depending on how weak you are. Libby needs to find a way to weed out these puppy dog types from the start, and prevent more stress upon herself.

If you or anyone you know are of the persuasion of an insecure, lonely male, please STOP and think about what you are doing: Libby is a kind young woman who loves to chat, but her kindness should never be mistaken for weakness — or interest. If only one girl out of 100 talks to you, that doesn’t mean she’s in love with you, it just means the other 99 were not as nice as Libby. She does not love every person whose problems she listens to any more than she loves a complete stranger.

Please think about what you are doing and how you are acting towards Libby, or any other girl in whom are interested. If you think something is amiss, it is probably you. Reexamine your behavior and realize you need not fall in love with the first girl to give you the time of day. Perhaps seek help, and let a professional tell you what I am trying: STOP RUINING IT FOR THE REST OF US.

Too many wonderful, sweet girls are abused for their behavior. Aggressive and insecure men take advantage of the kindness Libby displays. Why do you think there are so few like her? It’s because people like you, he who would spoil a generous heart for his own selfish reasons, frightens the hell out of any girl who refuses to tell you to go fuck yourself.

By now, if you have read this entire thing, you know who you are. If you have not had the pleasure of chatting with Libby, you also know what type you are and what type she is. You know that when you have only been chatting a few days, Libby is not madly in love with you.

Please respect both Libby’s right to privacy, and her right to be friendly with whomever she chooses, without having to fear being stalked.

If you continually attempt to contact Libby (or anyone else), and she does not reply, that is your warning. If you continue to “repeatedly” send “unsolicited” e-mails to Libby, then you ARE, by definition committing an act of cyber stalking and you should stop it immediately.

And if you can’t just let it go, please, please — seek help.

bleh.

Thursday, July 25th, 2002

Right now… I’m so close to taking this site down for awhile…

A Fine Balance/Ash Wednesday

Wednesday, July 24th, 2002

I was hanging out at the bookstore tonight… and I found this book which I just had to get. Did ya’ll know he wrote books also? I found it on Amazon.com the other day, but I didn’t know it was in stores this week.

I also found this article.. he was on the cover of this magazine so it caught my eye. (What can I say, he’s one of my fave actors) =) I think I’ll start his book tonight.. I’m curious!

I’ve been tempted to put A Fine Balance down again.. (I put it down recently to read The English Patient) I don’t know.. the book is wonderfully written but it is just depressing me so much lately.. The other day I just had to put it down.. and I haven’t picked it back up. It is about life in India in the 1970’s, I think. It follows the lives of these few people.. they have very difficult lives and everything around them just creates difficult circumstances.. =( Some of the things they go through are just heartbreaking.

Welll, this turned out to be a depressing post. Oops.

I have nothing to babble about right now ‘cept books, so I’ll go. =)

not very coherent.

Monday, July 22nd, 2002

I’m in the mood to update this page… but I have incredibly bad headache. I took some pain killers, but…. I just feel strange. So I’m not ‘all there’. (this is where you say, “when *are* you?”) I knew someone would say that, so I figured I’d beat them to it. I was trying to think of something to blog about - but I could come up with nothing.

What’d everyone do this weekend? I went to see K-19 tonight.. which was “okay”. I don’t know what it was.. maybe it is the fact my headache started halfway through the movie. I really like Liam Neeson… but lately I’m just not that big of a Harrison Ford fan. Anyways. Halfway through the movie, I just couldn’t wait for them to resolve things so I could go home…Throughout the movie, my thoughts were more like… “Get off the damn submarine, so I can go home!” So yeah, this wasn’t one of my favourite movies of the summer..

I just feel like crawling into bed right now and staying there… Maybe that’s what I’ll do. I guess I should stop babbling here. =)

Oh, one more thing… I’ve had the new Coldplay song (In My Place) on repeat all night.. I’m completely in love with it. I can’t wait until that album comes out…

Okay now I’m going.

Odd people.

Friday, July 19th, 2002

I think I need to just.. be meaner.. or something. After I had a complete and total stranger propose to me twice in our very first conversation yesterday, it just makes me wonder.

Okay, so people… give me tips. How do you get rid of weird people who do things like that… something along the lines of, “Get the fuck away from me, asshead.”?

This is such a strange blog topic… its just most of the afternoon I’ve had a ‘what…the….?” look on my face.

old photographs

Wednesday, July 17th, 2002

I just got back from visiting my grandparents with my mom and brother. We haven’t been up to see them in awhile… they were here visiting about a month ago though. Anyways. I spent the afternoon looking through old old photo albums. Faded photographs of people I’ve never even heard of before. There was this one picture though… of my brother and moi. It was taken at Easter - apparently we’re about 4 and 8 years old. I wish I could have brought the picture home with me, it was just classic. (well, to me anyways.) I was standing there smiling holding up some stuffed animal. My basket is filled with candy next to my feet. My brother is standing next to me staring at his Easter basket (which is empty) in horror… with this, “what the……?” look on his face. In the distance behind us, you see our old dog eating the candy. That is just a typical Holiday in my family.

I want to go back and get that picture…

My father bought “Amelie” for me on DVD since he knew I really wanted it… awwww. =)

I’m very tired.. I’ve been awake since 5am.. ugh. zzzzzzzzzz…..

My bed is calling me

my computer has kicked the bucket….again.

Monday, July 15th, 2002

I had this big entry all typed up but I accidentally closed the window… Ooops! Let’s see if I can remember everything I said.

I was rather worried about a dear friend of mine.. I hadn’t heard from him in awhile - and that is just rare - so I was wondering.. Anyways, today I heard from him and he goes, “I told you I was going to France, Libby.” which I know he never told me. So, the first five or ten minutes of our conversation were just us arguing about this. I know he never told me - yet he insists he did. Grrr! hehe.. *stands by the fact she never received this information*

Anyways, my computer has died again… so I stayed up all night last night reading. I finished The English Patient again. I’ve read that book a few times now.. I adore it. My favorite part would be this one line.. something like.. “How is that possible? To fall in love and be completely disassembled.” There are other lines too… but that is the only one sticking out in my mind at the moment. I think I’ll pick up A Fine Balance again. I’m so bad about putting a book down and starting another one I’m in the mood for. So bad.. I need to break that habit. =)

note to self

Monday, July 15th, 2002

Pain killers (for a headache) after drinking entirely too much Mtn. Dew Code Red is a very bad idea. *mental note* Right now I feel like I’ve been taking cold medication or something… my head is spinning. hehe