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It really doesn’t feel like tomorrow will be Thursday.. *sigh* I’m really trying not to think about it - if I think about it…. *sigh* I keep thinking that she is okay.. that it doesn’t have to be done.. but I’m wrong. I think the other dog knows.. he has just been different this summer. (not eating his favorite foods is just one example.)

Right now.. I feel like the 11/12 year old that stayed up all night sitting on the kitchen floor watching over her once.. (she was very sick as a puppy and the vet said if she lived through the night.. she would be get better.. so I stayed up to make sure.) A lot of things have changed in the past 14 years.. but right now.. I am back to that night.

I had a very long post typed up.. and since I am a klutz - I saved it as a draft.. I just came back to finish it - and the thing is gone. Gone. Hrm?

Damnit.

Now I have to try and remember what I was going to say. I know it was a long babbling movie post… bleh!

*kicks site*

*sighs* I really really don’t want to think about the fact tomorrow is Thursday,

My dog will have to be put to sleep this week.. *sigh*

I have 2 dogs - this is the oldest .. the one I’ve had since right before I turned 11. (she’s 14 now) She is really doing badly right now. it is suspected she has had a few strokes.. she’s basically not able to walk anymore. She can’t hear either really. I don’t know what has happened over the weekend but something obviously did.. she’s now far worse than she was. She has been going downhill for awhile.. and I’ve been warned for awhile now she is at the end of her life but *sigh* I don’t want any of this to happen to her.

There is an appointment with the vet on Thursday - but how bad she is today… I don’t know if she can last till Thursday. She is suffering.. and that just breaks my heart.

The other dog.. He doesn’t like to be away from her at all - and he is constantly checking on her. There is already talks of getting a new dog because he just won’t be able to handle this.. he’s the most emotional dog I’ve ever met.

*sigh*